again...

so, it's been a while since i've written anything, but several of my friends here in richmond are avid bloggers (alicia, daniel, keila, brent, anne, dave...just to name a few). i decided to try it out again, but honestly haven't thought of much to say. i usually like to write novels. i'd like to summarize the year but don't know how to begin. i'd like to say that my life is dandy but am not sure if that's the truth. i can say i'm sure that God has me in richmond for a purpose, but i can't say that i'm all that happy about it at times. and i still long for Home. i'm not sure if i will ever call this place home, or if i even have a home at this point. i feel like i'm wandering...and this nomadic life is hard. i struggle sometimes to catch my breath and am trying to see what God is doing or where he is leading, but i can't see the cloud or the fire, and i can't taste the manna. and what's scaring me most of all is that i am not trusting that He is taking care of me.