socially awkward...

as i spend more time at work than i do in social settings, i have noticed that i am not as adept as i once was in the usual social situations. it has gotten to the point where i think i might have a bit of social anxiety. it's not entirely my fault...i think that medical school and residency makes you somewhat socially awkward. you're just not as good at talking about non-medical stuff anymore. i used to be more well-rounded prior to all this doctoring business.

one example is that a few weeks ago, i went out with some friends to a bar to go dancing. fun night...fun friends...not people that i feel awkward with at all. but i was approached by a guy who (i guess) was trying to pick me up. he used the "can i buy you a drink?" line. and my response was...drum roll, please..."i already have a drink." not that i would have married the guy, but i feel sort of like baby on dirty dancing..."i carried a watermelon?"

i went to a church group tonight on the south side of richmond, and i was trying to tell my friend alicia that i was a little scared about it. then i thought about it when i got home and realized how stupid i'm being. why do i care what people think about me? and why do i think that they're thinking about me anyway? i'm selfish/self-centered. i'm praying that God will help me look beyond myself to do the work He has for me.